I went down to visit my Mom in Cincinnati for my spring break. My sister Ashley ended up coming with her little boy, Dominick. She came on Sunday and stay with us untill Friday evening. We were trying to plan for James (Aiden's Dad) to come down so he could see Aiden for his birthday. Which was on Saturday, March 24th. At first we didn't think things were going to work out, but they did. We ended up picking James up on Thursday at BP on Rt.32 around 8:30 P.M. I met his Mom, Ivy, for the first time. She was really nice and really acted like she cared about Aiden. She was so excited to get to see him for the first time. James seemed really happy to be able to get to see Aiden and I too. I was happy. Probablly the happiest I've been in a really long time! We got home and we watched movies with my sister Ashley. She didn't really care for them, so she went to bed.  I rented "Fight Club", and "Natural Born Killers." Those are just a few of James' favorite movies, and thanks to him they have become mine too. The first night that we spent together we didn't sleep really. We stayed up untill 6:30 A.M. and then my Mom's alarm clock went off so I told him that we needed to go to bed because my Mom would be pissed if she knew we were still up. Just because of the fact that the baby would be up soon, and someone would need to be awake to take care of him. So I fell asleep shortly after I told him that. James said that he slept for 10 minutes and then the baby woke him up. So he played with him for 2 hours. I was glad to know that when James told me. I like it when Aiden and James get to see each other. The next night my younger sister Cierra came down, and we did the same thing. James brought down a few movies of his and the one we watched was "American Beauty." I didn't really get to watch it because James and I were too busy picking on each other like we were in the 3rd grade again. LOL! My Dad dropped Cierra off at the apartment, and since my Dad doesn't like James we had to  hide James downstairs in the apartment complex. At first we were going to hide him in the laundry room, but Mom said "NO," and then we just had him go through a door and down the hallway. The next day was Aiden's Birthday!!! He was turning 1 year old. We got up and went to "Jungle Jims," then went to Cincinnati Mills Mall, so I could get Aiden a brithday present. Then we went home and waited for Joel (my mom's friend) and his kids to come. We were going to have a little birthday party for Aiden. Ended up being James, Cierra, Joel, Farrel,Melvin, Grandma, Mom, Aiden, and myself. We had a good time though. Aiden stuck his foot in his cake, and kept trying to touch the candle when it was lit. It was so funny. After the party Aiden got to play with his toys and ended up getting tired, so we put him into bed. Yet another night full of movies. James and I got to spend a lot of good time together. I really enjoyed his visit, and it made me feel better seeing him and Aiden playing around with each other. Hopefully things like that can work out more often. James and I were talking and by his actions and the way my heart felt I think that I might decide to change for James. I told him "I know I'm not perfect, but I will change what I need to change." He just looked at me in a form of shock. Don't really know why though? The comments that he was making about me quitting smoking, and I can prevent myself from being around stupid people (Bob) ... all of that just made me think .......................

So there have been rumours about Bob (my boyfriend of 2 years) smoking crack. This has been going on for about a month now I guess. I confronted him about it and he lied to me about it at first. Then he confessed about 2 weeks later about smoking crack and doing cocaine. I can deal with some shit that has to do with drugs, but that shit is taking it a little too far for me. I have other responsibilities to think about. Like a baby. I am not going to lose Aiden over a fucking crack/coke head. If something were to ever happen and I did lose Aiden over Bob's dumb shit the I would have to kill him. Or just cut his dick off.

           So Bob and I have been trying to work things out with each other for quite some time now. I broke up with him on December 18th, and we are still not going out. We might as well be though. Everything is still the same. Last Tuesday (January 30th) Bob and I were suppose to go to my doctor's appointment. And he didn't come after me in time to take me. So I lied and told him that I rescheduled it so that he would come after me. And he did come after me finally, but the only problem was that we got into a fight. I hit him and we shoved and pushed each other around. He pinned me against the door of his truck with his forearm against my throat. It scared the shit out of me!! So yeah. Then after that we have been doing pretty well until here recently.                      Just Tuesday on our way home from my other doctor's appointment. I was just lookin around in his truck for nothing and found a box of baking soda. I got pissed off and threw it in his face a little and then threw it out the window. At first I asked what it was for and then he said " to take the smell out of everything." I told him that he was a fucking liar ! He denied that it was his. He said that it could have been a friends. I turned it back around on him and said that if it was one of his friends and it was in the truck then they had to be making the crack in the truck which would mean that Bob was smoking the shit! RIGHT?!?!?!?!?! It's not just me that thinks this way is it ???? Seriously? Oh well anyway this is extremely long, and I appologize for that. Just haven't been on in a long time and had a lot to blog about.

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Margo

Well I found out a little over a week ago that Bob has been smoking crack. Doing coke and selling it. So we are no longer on good terms. I can't trust him for shit. He lies and says he will call or come and pick me up and then doesn't show up or even fucking call me. Which is just great! I packed all of the shit that he has bought me and threw it all in a trash bag and threw it in his truck and told him that I didn't want to see him if he can't tell the truth. I found this out and then confronted him about it and he denied it for 2 weeks and then owned up to it the other night (Saturday) Well just thought you might want to know.

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Margo

Bobbi asked me to come over today and party with her and the guys. There will probably be some of her friends there that I don't know, but that's cool too. I'm not even sure that I'm going. I don't have a babysitter, and I really don't like asking someone to watch Aiden while I go and get drunk. Makes me look like such a great mother!! Even talking about doing it makes me look bad. That's the only down thing about being a teen Mom. You still wanna have fun but can't cause you know right from wrong and you know your priorities. Ugh! Wish I didn't know them ... lol ... just kidding. So today I'm not sure what I am going to do. Cody really wants me to go to Bobbi's house he asked me to go yesterday after school. He was riding with Garrette in Garrette's car and I was watiting for Garrette to come out of the gastation. He was picking me up something fast. Then Cody was practically begging me to go because it would make it so much easier for him to go to the little get together or whatever he said. I feel bad cause I seriously don't see how I am going to get to go no matter what I try to do. Well the bell is going to ring here in about a minute. So I guess that I will end this ... publish it ... and then get back to what I was doing and wait for the bell to ring. Take care peeps!

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Margo

Yesterday was fun. I came to school and spent all day just having a good time with my friends. Then Cody wanted me to come over and chill with everyone. I wasn't so sure about it at first because it would be a last minute babysitting thing, and I didn't want to upset my Grandma. So Cody didn't even ask me until 7th period and we had a fire drill right when he had asked me. Then I decided to call my Grandma and ask her if she cared, and everything was fine with Grandma as long as I could be home around 6 o'clock no later than 6:30 P.M. So anyway I rode over to Garrette's house with Hunter and Cody. Then when we got to Garrette's they had band practice for about an hour or so I guess. Then we all decided to go over to Cody's house and they decided to get high. I guess this was a usual thing for them. So people were smoking and then after they smoked 2 joints we went up-stairs and we chilled for about an hour n a half. I watched them sit there and play wrestling on the playstation forever! lol I met Cody's mom too. She seemed really cool. Nice lady, fun, unique mother. So I got to chill yesterday with Cody, Garrette, Josh, Hunter, Nate, and Thia for like 20 minutes or something like that. Well just thought that I would blog about it. The first time that I've ever done anything with anyone besides Bob since I moved to Cincinnatti. That was like 2 years ago. Anyway. Hope that this was entertaining cause I know I was trying not to fall asleep while writing this. lol

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Margo

Well for Christmas Eve my Mom is taking me and Aiden over to James' house so he can spend time with Aiden and see him for the Holiday. I am so excited about it! I can't wait. I did just see James on Friday at the Liberty Union Basketball game because my sister Cierra asked me to go and my Dad came and picked me up. I stayed at my Dad's for the weekend, and we went Christmas shopping for me and Cierra. I had fun. Got some new clothes, shoes, underwear (if i wear them) <--- lol! and then my Dad bought me this really nice dressy outfit so that way I have something nice to wear to places that are semi-formal requirement. Like church or school stuff and all that jazz. I have from the 21st (which is my last day of school) till the 2nd of January for break and my Mom is wanting me to stay with her for the whole break and my Dad wants me to be there and now my sister Ashley is wanting me to come over for a day or 2 with Aiden and Bob. Then 2 nights ago James and I were talking and joking around about me staying at his house for a few night out of the break, and I'm not so sure that he was joking because he said that he would ask him Dad. So now I'm now so sure of what to do, and then I told my Mom about what happened and she said that we would talk about it. Well the bell is going to ring in a little bit just thought that I should inform. School blocked this site once before never know if they could again.

Peace Love & Happiness

Margo